Brilliance - the shiny stuff stars are made of.
Brilliance - an unachievable intelligence for the select few.
Brilliance - can't quite get to you -
until I did...
When I did, I realized she had been here
all along waiting patiently as the light had.
Waiting for me to claim her,
Waiting for me to discover her,
Waiting for me to uncover her,
Claiming not only my own brilliance, but
claiming all the goodness -
All that was gifted to me for no particular reason -
Just because I am me.
I am love,
I am light,
I am peace.
I am inspiration rolled in creativity,
Married to amazement, wonder, and glory;
Enfolded with grace spilling from my essence;
Brilliance, I am thee.
I got lost for a million years,
Sucked into a darkness that
enveloped my skin and the very
air I breathed.
It held me underwater and pretended
to be my friend,
Soothing me with more sickness,
Layering on more fear until I
thought we had become one.
We moved as this sick unit until
a piece broke off and I saw
there was another way,
I held my breath as I stared into
this empty space of light.
I listened as the angels told me
it was time to go.
It was my first knowing,
My first moment when my body
resonated with this truth and
I knew there was no turning back.
I was lost in a black abyss that only light could find.
Only light could wait patiently
for me to turn around,
Once I did they all rushed in
and guided me out of a self-made hell.
A hell I thought I was born in
or one that had been created as a
punishment for not doing or
being enough.
More lies that I had created
that kept me stagnant,
Kept me biting off a less than
average life in a world of mediocrity.
My heart told me there was
something more to be found.
An inner force called love
pulled me up and pushed
me out the door,
To find something better;
to know something better
And so I did.
I found the light within and without.
As I wandered down the path
Back to the car
To drive back home
I decided the love from the moon;
The love from the stars;
The love from the trees;
The love from the grass;
The love from my ancestors;
The love from my family;
The love from my extended family;
The love from my friends -
All of this is big.
And what if my cup already runneth over?
What if when she comes it's more about
the partnership than the love?
Because after all the love is already here.
Pouring out from everything, everyone, and every situation
It's already here.
From all the kids I taught;
All the teachers I inspired;
And the ones who inspired me;
All of nature, family, friends, and Divine Love herself.
How can I yearn for something that already exists?
That is already here.
In full fashion,
Shining its glory
Waiting for me to receive it
What if all along I already had everything I was seeking?
It was all here dormant because I looked past it,
beyond it, or through it
and not at it?
What if the story I had been telling myself was
a sucky, sad one of lies?
What if the truth is I am loved, loving,
lovable, and pure love?
Just because that is my true core
and the means of my existence.
The funny twist of the path
paralleled the twist of my story.
I breathed in deep,
Let go and said, "It's all enough already
and now
I can sleep a beautiful sleep
knowing I finished -
Knowing I am whole and complete already."
When she fell she learned her strength
In getting up and facing it all,
When she was abandoned she learned
She was never really alone,
When she was insulted she learned
She already held validation,
When she reached out and the hand withdrew
She learned to call on a source greater than herself,
When she loved, she loved big,
With all her heart, with all her being.
For she learned she had an endless supply,
Her innermost core was love.
She smiled, she beamed, and she knew
She would suffer no more.
She found it all inside herself.
Not in a friendship,
Not in a romance,
Not in things,
Everything she ever desired.
A treasure chest that had been forgotten,
Was now fully open, accessible and an
Abundant source of all goodness.
This blessed her.
This blessed all around her,
This circulated goodness beyond her imagination,
The Earth beamed, adjusted her tune,
and rotated a little bit easier.
